cWhen I'm writing this I am envision your cheshire cat, contagious smile in my mind, 3 long agonizing years have passed since I heard your voice and laugh. I can alway recollect every moment; every second and memory between us. They were our happiest. Most of the time.. I get flashbacks every once in a while, when we pass our favorite restaurant, or hear a joke you used to tell, when I see any cowboy boots I smile. The other day I saw a pair of cowboy boots with a dragon engraved on them. You would have loved them. You are my inspiration in life, no one could be so creative or inventive as you, loving or kind. I remember hours you spent playing guitar to me, rocking my on Tookie Tookie (pictured above). You did everything for me when I was little, you made me feel like a princess..always. Since I was born till now, you have been my hero. You were my entire world growing up and although I couldn't always be there I know I was yours as well. In reality we were in our own little world. But one day I stepped out of "our" world and into the real world, or friends and being a teenager. I know that broke your heart and I am eternally sorry. But Dad you are the best Dad I could ever have, I love you with all my heart. It was easy to love you we all knew that. But letting you go was the hardest thing I have ever done. In my eyes you were perfect. My goof ball of a dad, you are the most creative person I could ever meet, you had so many unfulfilled dreams, but I knew you had weaknesses and you did try to hid them so well. I know you tried your best to be the best dad you knew how to be. There are so many things to say, but this letter could go on forever. Losing you, Dad, has caused a colossal emptiness inside. But I am still working out my anger, I'll get there though. I'll forgive you. I swear. For as they say "Forgiveness is the final form of love" and I will never stop loving you. I love you as your daughter, your best friend and your world. Forever and always. Muah.
Your one and only baby,
Lizzy
P.S. I can't seem to keep "I Can't Keep My Eyes Off Of You" out of my head.
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